Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Either Or

Sometimes I feel like I can go up against anything

And other times

I feel like I could crumble


Self doubt and fear of accomplishing your dreams and beyond is for some reason.. incredibly intimidating. 

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Second Rate Citizens

Brown Women: We're a group of people admonished if we stand up to the fact that we benefit the least from a system that demands we give the most.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Structural Violence at it's finest: GrenfellTowers

No words.  No words that could comfort any of the families and friends who have missing loved ones in the tower.

You read the lists of people who are still missing and it's just.. heartbreaking.

Heartless people trying to make a buck have murdered so many people. 


Wednesday, June 14, 2017

It's not your fight

If you've never fought my fight, don't give me advice on how to throw punches. 

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Ramadan Ramblings 2017 #5: Equation

Take everyone in your life out of the equation.  Discount them from your support team.  Loyalties, no matter what, can shift or be taken away.

What does that leave?

Just you.

And it's not a cynical thing or a bad thing.  But it's a good reminder. 

The only guaranteed thing, the only thing you can depend on, is yourself.  It's comforting.  To know that you control your fate, if you allow yourself to have control.

We forget, sometimes, that we can soothe our own aches.  Once you figure out how to be your own best friend, when push comes to shove, you can never be broken down. 

Like any other relationship, it takes work.  It takes commitment and time. It takes scarifies, but instead of sacrificing from yourself, it's from the demands and expectations of others.

Am I saying abandon your family and friends? No, definitely not.  You will have responsibilities to others, as social creatures, we do have these obligations... but what exactly is needed and what is something you're not really wanting to do, but doing it for social sake? 

You can eliminate if you want to.  You can take back control.

Playing nice is a good way to get stepped on.  And trust me, the people who are stepping on you don't really care as long as they get their way.


Sunday, June 11, 2017

Updated Skin Care Routine (Ramadan Ramblings #4)


My name is Nishat! 

(Go back and read it like Russell does in 'Up'.  And if you haven't seen Up, go watch the movie and then come back... okay you don't have to, but you should watch it, it's funny)

It has been a while since I've gotten a request for a particular blog post - mostly cause of my on-and-off status and lack of beauty posts, but I got one this past week for a skin care routine.  To that person, thanks for thinking I have good skin!  Pretty darn cool.

My skin has been a fighting battle - oily, acne-prone AF, discoloration, the whole gamut.  Except now.. my skin is classified as 'normal'.

"Say what Jessabelle!?" (I dunno who Jessabelle or if that's even an expression.. but it should be)

I went to an esthetician a few months ago, cause I was once again fed up with my skin, and she actually told me I was drying out my skin too much with all my exfoliation and acne products and harsh cleansers and my skin was begging for moisture.


So my skin type is: Former acne prone, oily to 'normal'.

I was really hesitant to try out the skincare line she recommended, since lots of those end up in the 'skincare graveyard' but it's very much changed my life. 

Let's go back to the pseudo-beginning (my last skincare end point was << check it out).

After I stopped using Abbasi's stuff, my skin wouldn't completely heal, I still had these weird bumps on my forehead that would not go away:

I googled it and someone said it could be a yeast infection and to used a shampoo called Nizoral and it should be cured in 10 days! ... It was not cured. At all.

I went to another dermatologist who was much more helpful and said it was acne and he prescribed me Retin-A.  It did the whole "got worse before it got better":

But then it cleared up! My skin did get better, but it still was slightly acne prone, bad texture, oily, etc.  I resigned to my fate (Bumpy Ass Skin):

You can see the bumps on my head.  I unfortunately don't have any pictures that show how oily my skin was or how bad the texture was.

I had enough of it! A few months ago, I went to the esthetician to get a facial (hadn't gotten one in ages) and she informed me of my thirsty skin.  And now?

No foundation make-up in either picture!!

She had me try the skincare line Sanitas:

Although some of the items in the skincare are replaceable by other drugtstore/less expensive (this line is relatively pricey), there are a few that I had to re-buy:

Sanitas Skincare Antioxidant Moisturizer 

I had been on the hunt for a good moizturizer and this was.. amazing.  Light, moisturizing, not oily.  Had to rebuy it cause I hadn't found one in the 'real world'.  

Sanitas Skincare Perfecting Serum

AMAZING.  Makes my skin hydrated and smooth, did not want to find another replacement. 

So my skincare routine consists of:


1.  Sanitas Skincare Lemon Cream Cleanser
Still using my trial size, will be replacing it with a cheaper cleanser though 

2.  Spraying with a moisture mist 
(She said not to put any sort of product on your skin if it's dry)

3.  Sanitas Skincare Perfecting Serum

4. Sanitas Skincare Antioxidant Moisturizer + Dr Jart+'s Every Sun Day UV Sun Fluid Broad Spectrum SPF 30

(She said even though I'm naturally tan, sunscreen will help me from aging. It will also help fade any red marks left from acne)

5. Derma-E Scar Gel

(Trying to break down the hypertrophic scars I have on my chin)

6. L'Oreal Age Perfect Hydra-Nutrition Eye Balm

(This is marketed towards 'mature dry skin', but I got a sample of this and loved it.  Way cheaper than my Origins Ginzing eye cream) 

7. Ardell Brow & Lash Accelerator Treatment Gel (This is an interesting story - another blog)

Boom! Ready to take the day!  I'll apply concealer, powder to set, eyeliner, and mascara afterwards. 

My night routine changes, it's an every-other-day sort of thing.

Night 1:

1. Sanitas Skincare Lemon Cream Cleanser

2. Sanitas Skincare GlycoSolution 5% 

(I'll take this, put it on a cotton ball, wipe my entire face, and wait for it to dry.  Will try to look for a replacement after my trial size runs out)

3. Spraying with a moisture mist

4. Mario Badescu Vitamin C Serum 
(You don't want to use Vitamin C Serum in the daytime, it breaks down in sunlight so it's pointless)

5. Sanitas Skincare Antioxidant Moisturizer

6. Derma-E Scar Gel

7. L'Oreal Age Perfect Hydra-Nutrition Eye Balm

8. Ardell Brow & Lash Accelerator Treatment Gel

Night 2:

1. Exuviance Purifying Cleansing Gel 

1a. Retin-A Cream 
(I can't remember the name of it right now, sorry!)

2. Spraying with a moisture mist

3. Sanitas Skincare Antioxidant Moisturizer

4. Derma-E Scar Gel

5. L'Oreal Age Perfect Hydra-Nutrition Eye Balm

6. Ardell Brow & Lash Accelerator Treatment Gel

*Phew* This is long.  I will also exfoliate every once in a while, turmeric face mask, and at the moment, I am getting a series of glycolic peels done.  Yes they do work, but they are pricey.  Luckily you only have to do a series of 6-8, and only maintenance if you need afterwards.

And that's that! Wow, lots of writing.  But yeah!  If you want more detail about my outside my daily skincare routine, let me know!


::EDIT:: If you do buy Sanitas from that site, wait until they have sales! Sometimes they have 20-50% off and since these are pricey, it's worth the wait.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Ramadan Ramblings 2017 #3: Dreaming

I had a dream a few nights ago.

We were at school (high school, I'm not sure what significance it is to be transported back to high school), but Erica had already passed away.  But a friend (don't know which friend) was passing out her clothes.  They had this essence of Erica.. like Erica was literally right there with you, happily offering you her clothes.  Which she probably would. Even though she most definitely would look cuter in them.

Anyhoo, it made me miss her but also feel like I was with her.




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